Blacked Out

Heart broken
I've been floating, I've been smoking
I can't ignore it, my life's been boring
Like this since fourteen, I might be horny
Can't get exploring, feel like "oh poor me"
"Oh poor me"

Blacked out, I've been passed out laying on my friends couch
Make it back to my place so I can lay down
On the shitty mattress that they just gave out
Nothing close to greatness, I just wanna

Blacked out laying in the shower 2am on Sunday
Feeling like a coward
Haven't taken shots today it wasn't will power
Only reason for it is in the past 12 hours

I was full on blacked out but it clouds my happiness
Drowning in sailor Jerry's, how'd I become such a mess
Drinking daily for a some weeks, Mixing it with hella weed
I can't find where I belong, I'm pretty sure it's not this industry

Running from my problems, that's my issue
Tired of the constant feeling like "I fucking miss you"
Giving trust to those who want end up being misused
Couldn't change a thing honestly thats not what I'd choose

The pain doesn't stop until the heart does
You could frame our picture but that's not love
Trying to ignore it that's why I use drugs
Mixing it with shots hide the problem

I've been following my fathers footsteps
Could've called on him when shit got intense
Don't bother calling when you start to miss
Everything I did, even my presence
Im broken now, it's part of the lesson
What hurts me now will become a blessing
It's weird how my music becomes confession
It's weird how crossed faded becomes depression
When it should be reflection
Standing tall and steady gotta make a good impression
Handing my life over like I'm so submissive

I gotta change directions
It's time for my inspection
Doing my self reflection
turn my life round like a mirror

high at the intersection
This is my own creation
Asking for some more patience
Growth is something I fear

Started out in the basement
Since then a lot of faces
Don't ask me where the bass is
This is something you feel

I guess I'm not creative
Lost touch of my own spaces
Teeth fucked i need some braces
Digest another beer



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Writer(s): Aidan Harrington
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