Fading From My Memory

I have to write this down
Because it's fading from my memory
If I begin to drown
Who'll be there to remember me
If I'm no longer around
Promise I won't fade from your memory
If my music doesn't speak loud
Tell me everyone will know of me

That time we listened to Shawn Mendes in that car
The next day I texted you to ask how far
Away you were from getting here
But the path you took was severe
Scared me for a long time I Coulda lost you
Not sure what I'd have done if I'd have lost you
But now we are drifting away slowly
Every time I think about you I feel lonely
We were so close back then
Just wanna feel that closeness once again
Lost both of you in the same amount of time
I still feel the pain sneak up from time to time
I didn't know that that would be the last time I saw your face
Now I can only think about time that I will waste
I was never able to actually tell you goodbye
It'll weigh over me until the moment that I die
I'm so scared to move out and move on
Especially cause all my friends are gone
Have to go through this all alone
I'm terrified of the unknown

I have to write this down
Because it's fading from my memory
If I begin to drown
Who'll be there to remember me
If I'm no longer around
Promise I won't fade from your memory
If my music doesn't speak loud
Tell me everyone will know of me

I wish my thoughts were nearer
So my message was clearer
I want you to feel the memories
So that they aren't only remembered by me
So much time that will lay forgotten
I exit more of the present the older I've gotten
Searching for a Nostalgia Trip in the past
This time I hope that the trip lasts
So I can skip my Painful Existence
But stay the away same distance
So my memories won't fall away
I need to keep them longer than one day
Cause these memories leave me in a rush
They keep leaving me behind in the dust
Listening to Logic and driving up to band
I know I can't relive that memory again
Walking to the store bumping NF's Let Me Go
These are memories I never wanna let go
Never

I have to write this down
Because it's fading from my memory
If I begin to drown
Who'll be there to remember me
If I'm no longer around
Promise I won't fade from your memory
If my music doesn't speak loud
Tell me everyone will know of me

Take me back to August or maybe to December
When I had people to trust and things to remember
Playing sea of thieves on my new pc
Or going to Orlando and to Disney
Take me back to August or maybe to December
When I had people to trust and memories to remember
Listening to old songs for the first time
Or maybe releasing a couple of mine