Tightrope

With how we used to be I'd think that you would be more lenient
But you fall out of love with me
Every time it gets convenient
I constantly feel afraid
That my heart is going to break

I'm careful how I speak 'cause I don't want a disagreement
And every time we kiss feels like a personal achievement
With every single day
That you decide to stay

I forget how often you change your mind
Right when we're feeling good
It could be the last time

Tightrope walking on eggshells
Talking to my friends like they could help
Hoping you don't find someone else
Late night fighting in a hotel
Locking up the door to my own cell
Knock on my heart, don't ring the bell
And I'll be there

I'll be there
I'll be there
I'll be there

I feel like I'm in this cycle of codependency
Like I'm not happy when I'm without him but I'm not happy when I'm with him
And I just feel so alone
And then I feel like I'm losing everybody else
I'm losing myself
My inner light is fading
And I just feel so alone