Changes

It's been some years since I spoke with you
I found out all my hidden fears when I broke with you
I used to fear I had no hope with you
But now I know that to be true
Damn I was so confused

It takes time to ease your mind
When all you know is pain
I can't remember the last time that I felt sane

But now I'm falling all the time
I wish I could rewind
Back to a time when everything was okay

But now it's changing all the time, I know
The summer turns into bummer
And the hums turn to thunder

I wish I could be someone you know
I fuck up
But that don't mean that I'm a fuck up
But just fuck it

Now I'm better on my own, I swear
You probably think I'm all alone out there
But I been moving with the breeze
I don't need your sympathy
Yet still I wonder if you ever even cared

And do you ever think about me like that?
I doubt it
You're probably feeling all alone when you're crowded
Tell me, why you went and turned your back
I mean it
When I say that you're the weakest
Can't believe this

At least I still have my dignity
You gave away your every bit when you did this to me

Now when I think to the past, I'm glad it's history
I never should have missed a beat
You fucked me up but now I'm done
I'll see you later in my sleep

All these changes
It's like every day
I'm dealing with the same shit
Just break it down again
And rearrange it
I swear everyone the same
And I can't take it

How you go and do that to me
Oh the irony
I knew that you were like the rest
But yeah it's fine to me
You feeling threatened cause
I'm everything you're trying to be
You can watch me from afar
And sit there idly
No I won't go out silently

Now I'm pissed off
I feel jaded and I hate it
I feel ripped off
This was just a little moment
Just a pit stop
I don't think that you're prepared
For when I lift off
I hope you pussies kick rocks

And I mean it
Fake love, it's all around me
And I seen it
Why they leaching off of me
I know they feenin
Wanna be him
But they can't, I know they dreaming
They don't even know the meaning

But I'm done now
Imma leave it in the past
Never come round
I don't need you anymore
To keep it one thou'
And I'm holding my tongue
Don't get me unwound

You can stay where you belong
Up in the underground
Know the lightning always comes out
When the thunder sounds
I'm hopin that you fucking drown
To keep a hundred thou'
I don't need this anymore
I'll leave you under now
But first, the crown
And tell me now

And do you ever think about me like that?
I doubt it
You're probably feeling all alone when you're crowded
Tell me, why you went and turned your back
I mean it
When I say that you're the weakest
Can't believe this

At least I still have my dignity
You gave away your every bit when you did this to me

Now when I think to the past, I'm glad it's history
I never should have missed a beat
You fucked me up but now I'm done
I'll see you later in my sleep