Failure

Dropped the ball
I never passed at all
Staring at the wall
Take the blame, yea I'll take the fall

Got no time to stall
Sitting idle zoning out
I prolly need some Adderall

Brain stays outta focus
Hyper-focusing on random shit
Hard to do this music shit
When I'm constantly forgetting it

Got these people confused
They look at me with expectations
Like they know what I do
Like they know what goes through

My brain, is my imprisonment
Half these people are sickening
These sickos need sickles sinking in
Simply tired of these explanations

Of what's wrong with my life
When they don't understand
I discuss with some but
Similarly, I worry that they don't give a damn

The damning life that we all live
Is what we make it
I'm becoming better
Yet it still feels hellish

Burning up wanting my spot to become vacant
I'm growing and trying too not be complacent
But I feel in a spot where my future and present
Seems so invasive

Evasive of good, when I reach it leans away just complaining
I have been still and patient
S-s-still patient

Dropped the ball
I never passed at all
Staring at the wall
Take the blame, yea I'll take the fall

Got no time to stall
Sitting idle zoning out
I prolly need some Adderall

Brain stays outta focus
Hyper-focusing on random shit
Hard to do this music shit
When I'm constantly forgetting it

Head held low
Lookin at the floor with a grin
I know

Tryna forget woes
Like it's tic tac toe
End's in a draw
Stuck in my brain it goes

D-D-D-D-Don't
Ever forget that you should stay low
Ever forget that you have no home

Uh-L-L-L-L-lone
Yeah
You're the sole reason for all this shit
Kick yourself until you can't reminisce
All the bad stuff dwells while all the good stuff dipped

Don't question if you're a good person
Just try to stitch

Yourself together
Marionette strings
Pulling myself along
I got all my written songs

Forcing myself to be healthy
Tryna see if I'll be happy
But I'm still feeling so shitty
When will things improve

I feel stuck and that I cannot move