Walk Away

I won't lie
I've had better days more peaceful nights
My mind cluttered can't tell if I'm even
Thinking right
I'm overthinking every detail
Whether big or slight
To see if the problem is me
Like did I cause the fights
And private wars that I've fought in
And I'm burdened over
It gave me PTSD
I guess I was a soldier
You say it's bad luck like
I need to walk around with clovers
It's really just a tough lesson you learn
As you get older, yeah
This world is bad for the people person
The strong lovers tending to others
Although they're hurting
Bearing burdens of their own and that
Of a certain
Group of loved ones
They're taken for granted and it worsens
Broken to pieces and exhausted bad
From the exertion
The worst part is many come back
As a lesser version
Of how they started off
A heart of gold part of their purpose
Felt that it all was ripped away
Through the act of coercion

It's hard to figure out
I imagined myself much better than now
With the hopes that you would be proud
What should I do
When they won't stick around

Let them walk away
Go take care of you
Though it sounds cliche
It still stands today
When they walk away
Go take care of you
That's their own mistake
That they can't erase

I ponder on these matters
The heaviness and the tension
The tears splatter the ground
On which I'm currently venting
Knelt down deep in prayer
God has my full attention
The hairs rising and goosebumps
Tells me he listens
Letting me grow through the pain
Though I feel apprehensive
Cuz I'm no longer the same
And not quite sure how I'm different
I know I serve the most high
He's the fuel to my engine
But that doesn't guarantee each phase of life
Has happy endings
And if you do everything and it's not enough
How do you carry on
When you've given out so much love
Made y'all a safe space
And still they packed their bags up
May not rock with many but
You with em even when it's tough
It says a lot when you're there in
The moments that are rough
That unconditional love
Don't lie in everyone
And we all make mistakes
And are changing up everyday
But if in them you find a homey place
It hurts to see em' walk away

It's hard to figure out
I imagined myself much better than now
With the hopes that you would be proud
What should I do
When they won't stick around

Let them walk away
Go take care of you
Though it sounds cliche
It still stands today
When they walk away
Go take care of you
That's their own mistake
That they can't erase

I think it's clarity
I really need
Maybe a better night's sleep
I done had thousands of hours
To think
And understand all the pain that was
Cutting deep
I hate to grieve
For me it's much slower
Than the average person
Such a slow glow up
If a blessing's not too far
Pray I'm getting closer
I'll be glad when this is over

Let them walk away
Go take care of you
Though it sounds cliche
It still stands today
When they walk away
Go take care of you
That's their own mistake
That they can't erase