Hiding (feat. Love, Ulysses & Chill da God)

A lot of times my face feels heavy, left arm feels heavier
Middle of day coming back down from when I left the earth
Bending curbs, ascending, lamenting, pinching petty words
Out of a memory, clenching teeth, falling in head in first
Into my own brain, skin looking like it's wrinkles
Always looking for the fatty folds where I can fit this key thru
Socialite and recluse, crow's eye is see thru
And I know it, perched on clothesline where the breeze blew
Death is so subtle thank God it's not always physical
This mask is suffocating, I kept it on in the living room
For what tho, up close, months old, tongue gross
Snub nose clutched, rope hung, lonesome, but hope
More than hope, still don't even know my own strength
Even when I'm feeling empty somehow fill my own tank
Can't even take that for granted, it's a skill that I hope stays
That I know stays, as I approach the four way
With bones scathed, learning from my injuries
Especially ones where I ask what has gotten into me
Dotted symmetry, reminder of how it unfolds and how I tend to be
When I feel like i'm my own enemy

I'm a walking ball of anxiety in a trench coat
With a person mask, sneaking into a screening of Memento
What year is it? But time isn't linear
You can call this nonsense, don't call it late to dinner
One, two, three, get off my old man's apple tree
Been looking for hiding spots since before I could see
Through my four eyes, nor two, nor three
When times get tough I've been know to flee
And yea, my ambitions playing peek-a-boo
In the mirror like I don't know what I see in you
Yo, I got a question I must ask tho
Can I sport a fake mustache on my passport?
In the foxhole, rocking all camo
Down to the Crocs, stay strapped, no ammo
Na na na na na, you'll never find me
'Cause sometimes even I forget that I'm hiding

Sometimes even I
Sometimes even I
Sometimes even I
Forget that I'm hiding
Sometimes even I
Sometimes even I
Sometimes even I
Forget that I'm hiding

Forget, forget
That I'm my own enemy
I'm my own enemy

That I'm
Hiding
Hiding