Broken & Abused

How do you live with the pain
Got a lot of thoughts that I never let out
Times when I talk to the Lord, I'm ashamed
Battles my demons every night they just shout
Hop on the gram and I know I'm the same
Not one of these people that do it for clout
I am a person attracted by fame
Wonder how it feels when they're calling your name
Heavys the head the burdens the crown
Think about my days when I was a kid
Hardly remember the days when I smile
Battles my emotions, I closed up the lid
Always remember shedding those tears
Always remember grabbing a towel
One night I took all those pills I was gone
Questions of God, why you keep me alone
Am I not worthy of love
Am I not worthy of hugs
Do I give it too much
I am a person that weakened by lust
I am a person that do not fully trust
I am a person that do not give enough
I am a person that do not give a
Know that its coming, can't wait til I'm up
Patterns, Patterns, I'm sick of being stuck

Cause I don't want to give up
But sometimes I just feel stuck
And on days when I choose me
I end up like the Villian in all these people's stories
Can't give you what you want
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah
Can't give you what you want
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah

Won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
Cause I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
Lord, Won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
And I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused
Lord, won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
And I don't wanna lose
And I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused

I got some demons that's creeping on me
When the reaper coming, is he sleeping on me
Gatorade and Vodka, just to go to sleep
I got people that wanna lecture me
I got people that keep texting me
Frame it like they just want the best for me
Oh really, do you really want the best for me
You just self-absorbed when you check on me
When I disconnect, no you can't use me
When I disconnect, no you can't use me
My daddy worried, he keep calling me
Same with my mom, she be texting me
Like damn son, why you ignoring me
She said you only 21, you should be happy
Well I guess everything ain't what it seems, yeah
The other day I saw Lil Uzi
Come to Philly, andpop a wheelie
Had to ask myself, why he still in Philly
DId the money and fame, uh, make em happy
Obviously not if he still in Philly
See that's why I don't want these people round me
Married the pain, holy matrimony
Now I ask myself how I become this lonely, yeah
Soo if you live this life
God in the morning, demons at night
Pour out your soul hoping they like
Lyrics of the life that you write
Cast me out, do it like Mike
Cause I don't got time to think twice
I don't got time to think twice
Look in the mirror, see what you like

And I don't want to give up
But sometimes I just feel stuck
And on days when I choose me
I end up like the Villian in all these people's stories
Can't give you what you want
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah
Can't give you what you want
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah
Cause you don't really love me
Until you down in need, yeah

Won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
Cause I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
Lord, Won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
And I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
Lord, won't you save me from myself
Cause you know that I need help
Cause I don't wanna lose
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused
I'm broken and abused

Cause I'm
I'm broken, I'm broken
And I'm holding
And I'm holding on
And I'm holding on
And I'm holding
Yeah, yeah, cause I'm broken
Yeah, cause I'm broken
Cause I'm broken, lord
Won't you save me
I need you to save me
And I need you to save me
And I need you to save me
And I need you to save me
And I need you to save me