Absurdity

Why so wide eyed
Big white eyes
Another can of worms should not try
All my time
You side eye
I don't need your shit
Cut these ties

Said I'd keep myself together
You tore right through the header
Said I'd keep myself together
Why you always pain me
Always acting
Private eye (Actin' private eye)

You run me 'round
And I don't wanna play this game again
Can't talk your way out of this one
I wont give in the end
Keep fucking with my head
It'll all just end
It ends a bloody mess
Make it out to be less
Sacrifice my head space
It was all just a mess
It was all just a mistake
So let me know again
When will you stop pretending
And give me some sort of compensation

For all the absurdity
Bitch, it's hurting me
Cut me open so deep
Broken bones, won't be beat
I guess I'll just learn to be alright
And I tell myself
It's okay
I pick up all of the bad habits
Cope with the pain
They all ask if I'm alright
And the answer is not

(Ignored cause you could barely control me)
(My brain was all over the floor)
(Scream and cry about your selfless help)
(Was it really all that you whore)

Alright
Alright
Here I go again
Another night I spent alone again
Just to play pretend
I run around in a circle leave my thoughts
Just desert them
I'm mindless in my own respect
Words timeless
At least that's what they said
And I don't know anymore
We did not have good rapport
Did u mean what you said
You don't want me out of this
You don't want to mend this shit

So give me some sort of compensation

For all the absurdity
Bitch it's hurting me
Cut me open so deep
Broken bones won't, be beat
I guess I'll just learn to be alright
And I tell myself
It's okay
I pick up all of the bad habits
Cope with the pain
They all ask if I'm alright
And the answer is not