Drowning

Thinkin' back to the day,
Where everything was okay,
Memories decay.

Life takes it own way,
Nothing will stay,
But it's okay.

I asked my momma if she fears her death,
Two days later I witnessed her last breath.
The doctors called me lucky, she didn't die at home,
But there is never the right time to go.

But I'm already drowning,
So much water surrounding,
My head and my shoulders,
My chest so my lungs can't breath any longer.
But I'm already drowning,
So much water surrounding,
My head and my shoulders,
My chest so my lungs can't breath any longer.

I can stand this,
I cant stand this,
I can.
I can stand this,
I cant stand this,
I cant.

My father met his new wife,
Maybe he pulled her too tight,
To see what she hides.

We found a new family,
I mean how hard can it be,
We will see.

There's always withering right after the bloom,
It went on and got worse, they started fighting like goons.
I decided just to hide in my room,
Later came into the kitchen that was lying in ruins.

Sister got into psychiatric treatment,
I claimed to be ok, while facing my inner demons.
Got myself into therapy.
At first it felt so much better, but when I'm speaking seriously,
There's still so much left i haven't talked about.
Like a lump in my throat from which I am chokin' now.
From which I am chokin' now.
I hope I won't drown.
I hope I won't drown.

But I'm already drowning,
So much water surrounding,
My head and my shoulders,
My chest so my lungs can't breath any longer.
But I'm already drowning,
So much water surrounding,
My head and my shoulders,
My chest so my lungs can't breath any longer.