Insecurities

(I've been feeling these emotions, idk...)

I might need security
For all my insecurities
My angels out here guiding me with no light
What an Irony

Clearly I need therapy
I'm stuck inside this melody like if I had a warranty
I'd be with it eternally

Thought I had one with you
But no, it was illusion
Harder to solve then Sudoku
Guess was my fault for trying
Thoughts are filled with emotions
Like the waves of the ocean
Some hit hard frozen, sometimes it feels like it's lotion

Cause I don't know where I'm headed
I just go with the motion
Shit ain't gonna break me
Bitch I'm strong, I am a trojan

I don't know what you posting on Insta
That shit pollution
My heart officially stolen, my eyes are finally open

Now I know what it's like
The feeling of your heart broken
Funny how I thought I was lucky to be the one chosen

Made me sip all your poison
It happened all way to fast
But I saw in slow motion
Yeah I got to be tripping

Waking up in the morning
Waking up by your snoring
But you got that pretty smile
It's my sunrise

But you got too many lies
It hurts, I see your demise
Hurting me hurts you
I saw that when your smile died

We always got these fights
But fuck it what can we do

I ain't letting you go
You showed me love I ain't knew

Like I don't know where to start
No pulse to my heart
Girl you tore it apart
I'm bouncing back to the start

Wish you could understand
Wishing we could restart, but I guess you don't see our art
You say you need a fresh start

It's just I don't understand
Thought I was apart of your plan
Till I saw you with that man
Now I don't know where to stand

I hate going on the gram
Cause then I go in my spam
Reminisce on all the pics that we had

But then that's then and this is now
Yeah still hurts to see you now
I get higher then the clouds
Got to be moving on somehow
My boys be like yo where you at?
On vacation for a tad, been trynna let it go
Been trynna reformat

Until you know what it's like, having a heart that goes flat
Until you go through the hike, you'll understand where I'm at

We all got to come together like my boys from The Beatles
Still got to watch your step, pins hurt like needles

You was different then the rest
Till you got involved in this mess
When I see you I digest pain going throughout my chest

I ain't trynna finest, I'm just doing my best
Maybe one day Ill be bless, instead of having this stress

Nah fuck you

I'm sick of rowing the boat
Got to make my way through it so I can prove I'm the goat

I'm sick of all of this bullshit
Say things they like or be quiet
If not they go start a riot
Loosing it all it's a diet
Why can't we all make amends, I'mma say till it trends
My confidence was a two, but with self love it's a ten

I know I'm not with the greats
One day that'll be a debate, you want me back? It's too late
It's over now, bitch checkmate
Nigga fuck you
(Huh, okay)
Nigga fuck you
(Yeah)
Nigga fuck you