I Said I'd Never Do

I've been stuck in a dark place
I've been all alone, no wonder that my heart aches
Movin' on from home, but every signal's been opaque
Tryin' to see through, but this loud makes it all vague and I
I just needed some distance I've been up and I've been down
No need to go reminisce but I know
Humility is the difference, cause if you got it they won't forget it
Feels like I just wasted a whole year of my life
Wishing I would die and that's that shit I said I'd never do
So tonight I'mma go get high, get high out my mind
And think about what got me through cause
I been through some real shit
Death been hard to deal with
When I get down low I get high to deal with it
Cause tonight I'mma go get high, get high out my mind
Even if that's what I said I'd never do
Run it back, run it back woah
Got a hundred on the dash woah
Race car I can't crash
Park and come in through the back
That's just the life that I have woah
And they been sayin I should wait oh
They been on my ass for days
Think they jealous of my face
I worked for this but its fate woah
And I know you won't admit it, I been up and I been down
But don't you go get it twisted I'm alone
They started treating me different
They think the money ain't shit it's a gimmick
But it feels like I just wasted a whole year of my life
Wishing I would die and that's that shit I said I'd never do
So tonight I'mma go get high, get high out my mind
And think about what got me through cause
I been through some real shit
Death been hard to deal with
When I get down low I get high to deal with it
Cause tonight I'mma go get high, get high out my mind
Even if that's what I said I'd never do