My Rusty Scissor, I Need It When I'm Lonely

I need
I feel
I want
My scissor

It helps me
Calm down
Sometimes
I fall instead

The feeling on my skin
It's such a cold feeling
My heart races with each stroke
And I do it in the dark

White lines in my arms
Slowly turn to red
I close my eyes and feel
Like everything isn't real

I even did it in school
In front of some of my classmates
The cut was deeper than expected
It hurts

And here it comes
Everyday I felt like I would have to jump
Cause I did not feel accepted or recognized
They always left me out, that's why I fucking shout
That's why I'm so loud, that's why I hate everyone
I can be cynical because I have too many reasons to be
Being friendly only leads me to pain and betrayal
I don't know who else I should fail
Who do I have to fail other than myself?

Fall down
Feel my pain (no)
I can
Feel it rain

Believe it or not, I once used have many friends
Now they all left because of the way I acted
I will never trust again, no one will ever defend me
It's unfair cause I got nothing, motivation, the sensation
I have felt it, but never kept it
Is turning 18 really going to help?
Will I really be able to have more freedom?
Or will this lead to more restrictions?
I don't know who else I should fail
Other than myself

Fall down
Feel my pain (no)
I can
Feel it rain

Fall down
Feel my pain (no)
I will
Make it rain



Credits
Writer(s): Alec Nunthapiwat
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