the video

And I wish
That this was a video
We could be stars on the screen
There's a lot in between this and me
If I focus
For a moment
I could catch a wave of presence
For the first time in a second
Cause of all that you gave

But if it was a video
I could still hide in myself
All the secrets I keep
So just keep this between us
It's killing me darling
There's a lot in my past
I'm not willing to ask for a river in between
There are things I can see
That you don't want to know
And I'm living in these things

Broken down and decrepit
Crawling through the pit
If you don't want to love me for this
I couldn't blame you a bit
But you did
As you always do
So forgive me for doubting
But I'm really drowning
Can I give it to you

Can you hold me for a second
There are things that I'm regretting
You should've told me is what she said
I thought I'd be done
I thought I'd be dead
Cause I know
This isn't a video
This is skin, this is bone
In a house, in a home
It was killing me darling

Can I tell you the truth about loving for me
It's a tattered up shirt
That I wear cause it works
But you stitch up the seams
And that terrifies me
Cause I know that it's good
It's just a pattern it lacks
No stain in the glass
It's the hurt that I need

But you can come in between it and me
I'll save you a seat
You can come in between it and me
I'll save you a seat
And burn up the video
It was killing me