I'm a Sinner

I'm a sinner
Yeah, I'm a sinner
When I'm not, sober, don't know how To act
I'm a sinner
Yeah, I'm a sinner
Probably got a screw lose, but I'm ok With that
I feel like, I'm locked in a trap
But I'm not
By my-self
Cuz I'm hearing voices
Though I can't see, no one, else
Remind me of those night, terrors
Back, when I was, 12
Where I used to wake up Uncomfortably
And screamed, out, for, help
It feels like hell
The smell
That dwells
Similar to harsh
Prison, cells
Look
In the mirror
At night
Swear I see, the
Devils, shell
That creep
Behide me
At times
When I don't feel my, usual self
I don't know
But one thing I'm sure
Is that I need, serious help

So, can you
Forgive me
There is something, inside me
That feels strange
You could say, beast
That disturbs
My deep sleep
Don't think it's my
Sleep apnee
Feels so, dark
And so, bleak
I want to fight
But feel so, weak
And I can't
Escape this
So, can you
Forgive me
There is something, inside me
That feels strange
You could say, beast
That disturbs
My deep sleep
Don't think it's my
Sleep apnee
Feels so, dark
And so, bleak
I want to fight
But feel so, weak
And I can't
Escape this
I'm a sinner
Yeah, I'm a sinner
When I'm not sober, don't know how To act
I'm a sinner
Yeah, I'm a sinner
Probably got a screw lose, but I'm ok With that
I'm sinner, sin- sin-sinner
Got some secrets, about me, that will Remain like that
I'm sinner, sin- sin-sinner
Can the Lord forgive me
Or is it, too late for that

I'm not
Joking
I'm hoping
I don't need to
Attack it
To force it
To not, control me
No more and
Leave me alone
Cuz
The amount, of, sleeps, I have, broken
Is hopeless

I need a dose
Of doxepin
To stop
All these emotions in

No overdosing
No way I can't
But I'm hoping
It goes away

And turns dormant
Before I change
Into someone
Or worse

Turn into, something
I don't
Really even want in
I hope

I can really stop this
I don't, want to sell my soul, God
I promise, honest