I'm Down

It's that fear of failure
It's that don't ask me how I feel I don't know what to tell ya
It's those self-destructive thoughts my mind is a traitor
It's a range of emotions its a change in behavior
See it's that, it's that feeling uncertain
It's that, keep it to yourself so you ain't a burden
It's that smiling for the world even though you are hurting
It's that I got to keep working though nothing is working, that person
It's the thought of betrayal
Those pretending that they love you, but knowing they hate you
They'll watch you build yourself up in hopes they can break you
You'd give an arm and a leg they'd still be ungrateful
See it's that, lack of trust in who's with you
Are they really down to ride or you just beneficial
Only hit you up when they need you, they don't see the issue
They quick to party but when it's war, they quick to forget you

It's that tryna look calm on the surface
It's that acknowledging your flaws while tryna be perfect
It's those days you feel confused not knowing your purpose
When something good happens, you question if you deserve it
See it's that, not following what you envisioned
So you can never feel complete cause something is missing
Try not to get close to many, you keeping your distance
You know most people nosey,
they don't care to listen, there's difference
It's that not tryna feel overwhelmed
That feeling of stress it's no stranger, you know it well
Keep emotions in, your ribcage is a holding cell
It's weird how things cost you even when they're not up for sale

See it's that, tryna forget being mistreated
That drive to move forward even when you feel so defeated
Keep saying you cool even on days that you don't believe it
Your tempers like the temperature, it's switching for no reason
See it's that, learning to live with your decisions
Constantly overthinking, trapped in a mental prison
That trying not to fall victim to everyone's opinion
Made peace with others, but with yourself, you're unforgiving
See it's that, I'm not mad, just don't want to be bothered
Use silence to fight the noise, you come off as awkward
Fighting battles while on your own like a shadow boxer
You can't depend on others, not many that got ya
See it's that, feeling you don't like to talk about
That untrained space that holds all of your anger and doubt
Pulled in all directions, not sure how to change the route
No matter where you choose, it always seems like it's going south

See it's that, tryna learn how to take control
That tryna get a grip while still learning to let it go
Keep asking if you cool, the truth is that you never know
Don't know nobody nothing, but you still feel indebted though
It's just that, real you when no one's around
Can't find your footing, you're just hoping to feel the ground
Pretending to be strong cause you think that it gives you clout
But truth is you're feeling down
You hope you can make it out
Just hope you can make it out