Myself at Last

When I was a kid, I had a great yearning
To be something different, and so much more girly
When I asked my friends if sometimes they felt the same
They simply could not pretend they thought I wasn't insane
When I was in high school things kinda got worse
But it's easy to hide when you do not converse
Then I started dating and things really got strange
Girls, they found me frustrating, but I couldn't change my ways

If maybe you knew the truth
You'd understand, but I can't risk it
You wouldn't believe, if you did you'd reject
And I won't take the chance, 'cause I cannot expect you
To share all your makeup and lend me your dresses
And colour my nails, and help style my tresses
'Cause I just want to be a princess

But I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me

When I finished college, things got more confusing
There were girls I misled just because I was wanting
A friend, but they though that I wanted them
'Cause I guess only then is when most guys pay attention
I just wanted to hang, but then I got picked
So I went out and drank with the boys when I wished
To be home with the girls chatting, sipping wine
Can't express how I yearned, but that was not going to be my life

As I grew older, the fear of exposure
Weighed down on my soul, and I'd contemplate always
The things that might be if I let people see
All the wonderful things that society told me
That it found revolting, repellant, provoking
I lost years to the dread of things hidden, unsaid
Finally I'd had enough
I was done with the bluffing, lying, hiding, and waiting
Started telling my friends, feared they'd say I misled them
Lied to them, betrayed and confused them
I was ready to hate, mistrust, disgust
To be loathed, disliked, despised, abhorred, but...

When I came out, some people couldn't believe it
There were some who were proud, and some who only could deem it
A sin, but I thought, hey, why should I care
'Cause my friends are aware and only care for my welfare
Soon they moved on to topics other than my news
I said, "That's not all I got, why aren't you confused
Perplexed, bemused? Why do you ignore my story?
I'm so sorry it's so boring"

Now that you know the truth
And understand, now I can trust you
You showed you believe, and you do not reject
When I shared all my feelings you did not object
Still you cannot imagine, you don't know how it feels
When I'm out in my dress, standing tall in my heels
And shouting loudly from the tree tops:

I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me

I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me

I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me

I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me

I am myself at last
The doubt that I felt has passed
And I will forevermore be free
To be no one but me