Only Me

Listen, it's an endless road on the search for peace
Cause at times it feels like it's only me, only me
Yeah, some people relate when I am on the beat
But who is there to ride for me when I'm stuck on the streets
Barely had a hand to hold, when I was running through this industry
Folks claim love, but we're never super into me
Sit inside of silence, tryna push away the enemy
My whole career in a chokehold, coulda just ended me
But, it's all Gods timing right
Hard to believe when every goal feels so outta sight
How did I get here?
A place of doubting God when He just gave me my last breath
Can I get back to the place driven by my Lord's passion
God take away my lust
Take away distractions
Take away this feeling, never happy
Always dragging my feet behind me
Walking in light seems like a distant venture
While the culture I reside applying constant pressure
Everlasting life, He wants to supply me
But I deny Him
I think I'm super righteous while passing judgment
I'm buggin
All this rubbish, the baggage, the luggage
I'm lugging, so sluggish, while frontin
Act like i'm better when i feel like nothin
Zero, I ain't no hero, you can have the capes
God give me strength while I play more games than pattycakes, huh
This is spiritual warfare and the devil don't fight fair
Tryna gain some buzz, I hope it don't take light years
I'm no better than the next man, trust me
Put myself in positions, disgusting
Hope they don't uncover my secrets
Like TMZ leakage, as I go and preach it
But live my whole life latching to this world like leeches

Are these raps making God really proud?
When dad looks down will he really smile?
Or am I just another man driven by sinful ambitions
Masking it with holy spam, premeditated self-dispositions
God, don't take me out of your hand
I find my solace when I truly go and follow your plans
God, please don't take me out of your hand
I find my solace when I truly go and follow your plans