Play For Keeps

Wasnt no one here to answer my calls
When I needed help
You were of somewhere else
With someone else
Like I wouldn't tell
Like I Wouldn't smell
You convinced yourself
Knew you doing wrong
Didn't know what i was on
I was in the booth assasinatng the song
That's just the daily
Excuses spare me
I'm in the zone
On my own
Where I belong
How I prefer it
Can you withstand the current it turned me to a hermit
When I realize your worthless
A two headed serpent
Expecting perfect
Forgetting there past
Though it's In front of your eyes like a lash
I had to make a splash to get the respect I demand
You show up unplanned
I'm Like suppose to be glad
I'm not it's a fact
A concept you can't grasp
Sorry to let you know
That was your last chance

I Write that I'm fine
But these Words touch me
So if you hearing mine
Consider yourself lucky
I'm gas and you keep lighting me
Oh you had it bad
Please enlighen me
You life's not my fault
You was never normal
I Lost all morals
You wouldn't know If struggle you had a rope around your neck
I just blown away by the fucking disrespect
I put out my neck
You just gas light me instead
To when I Drinking having random sex
I was 18 fuck you expect
Mom day dreams
Pop on morphine
But I'm confused correct
I must been to much of
A threat
Fight or flight
Regret or revenge
The bridge burns on both ends
No longer pretend
No longer defend
Never amend
Shit is what it is
Put your nose down
Now and take a sniff

Headed down a dead end road dipping obstacles
Joy with out pain
That's Impossible
Look In the mirror as it shatters I bleed
Every thought I conceive is incomplete
Or out of reach
It's like Cursive when speak
Later in the car sit and critique
The standard of my self I see
I hold music so deep
I dont know who you are or who you wanna be
I just know some nights I don't wanna be
Create outcomes in my head
Causing my own stress
A sad place you can't compare it
A feeling of careless
No merit
Till parish
Happiness at its rarest
Born and die trying defy there narrative
Overwhelmed with embarrassment
All the times you swore
You gave a shit
Now you one child less
Bitch your childish
You can run I'm wash my hands of this
For the final time