next life

I got tired of waiting
Tried to make the small things matter
But everybody leaves
When they say they're there for me

There's no one really there
It's always been just me
Stuck inside these corners
Writing melodies

And I think I'm ready for my next life
Is there somewhere better I can spend my time
Not in a sad way, I'll be fine
It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes

I got tired of losing
He says I feel too much emotion
If I chose to sleep forever
Would you even notice?

I'm not a perfect person
And I never claimed to be
But don't you see I'm trying?
I've always been so weak

And I think I'm ready for my next life
Is there somewhere better I can spend my time
Not in a sad way, I'll be fine
It's not a bad thing, life's unfair sometimes

How was I supposed to know?
No one ever stays too long
Not even the grownups
They get sick and go
I know it's all my fault
I should've picked up when you called
Instead I shrugged you off
Car rides full of small talk