Battle Royale

Finally light wakes up my inside
I was waiting you for a long time
I just thought you were dead
And the darkness became
The new leader of ourselves

But not so fast! rests of some shadows
Still remain inside my mind
Never letting me enjoy
Always working the wall
Get away I just need more time

And it's now when
I sink down fast through the river
Of my tears but I'll be fine
I was always prepared
Seeing closely the end
Puffing up my old lifeguard

Scratching hard all of my surface
Just to open up my heart
I was never intend to get finally well
Fog is blinding my tired eyes

And it was me
Who started this battle royale
It was always me
Who also thought this could be fine
But now I'm wondering
If this will shut me down for all my life

I'm not afraid of suffering
But I prefer to calm down
All these pains smoking weed again
But it's not for fun, just to hide my scars and
I kind of enjoy this blackout
Makes me forget you for a while
It's never enough, sometimes even worse
Self destruction is my part time job

And I'll be waiting for this to be closed
The things we let undone
The things I could be doing all day long
The good talks about nothing will be lost
That kind of warmness in August
The wetness of the lakes between the rocks

Now things are written into stone
Maybe the rain can try to erase
The words we don't want to read anymore
I hope this will be my last song about getting out of the hole