Scream

I feel conflicted, but it's excitement
Maybe I'm nervous, mostly I like it
It's like the house light I keep unlit
Last box in the basement, I've got a secret

I've got a secret under the carpet
I can't remember in which compartment
The mind holds memories of days we've missed
I miss being certain, certainly I miss

Fallin' for the afterthought
Of feelin' what I want
I want to feel everything
But when I do it makes me
Question if I'm falling wrong
Don't wanna break something
And people say it can belong
As long as it's unseen

I feel uneasy, internal conflict
My head and my heart try to rephrase the argument
As "You didn't feel that," now I feel gaslit
Torch my emotions, please change the subject

Fallin' for the afterthought
Of feelin' what I want
I want to feel everything
But when I do it makes me
Question if I'm falling wrong
Don't wanna break something
And people say it can belong
As long as it's unseen

I feel confused by what I'm ashamed for
I feel ashamed by my human nature
Choose to adapt new outward behavior
To feel accepted, people are built for

Actin' like there's nothing wrong
So they can just belong
Sometimes I just wanna
But if I did it'd make you
Question if I'm worthy of
Feeling love
It's funny how we get along
Just as long as I'm quiet