Family Portraits

Look
It's only rainy day trips
I got to hide the tears
God keeps reassuring me that
It's not ending here except career
It's all here

I'm learning how you
Only need yourself in life
It's closed doors that keep on
Opening up for wealth in life man
It's getting hard to understand
I'm getting bigger working towards
Ain't never part of the plan
I've kept the garden well nourished
Growing on you no florist paper high
You sight seeing no tourist
As if I didn't only hope
You ever did flourish
As if I didn't always know
To show up give you more this
Hot tracks
You couldn't melt the handprints
I've got cemented
I'm getting bigger now
You've made selections my reflections
You couldn't dead beat the boy
But killing me is a suggestion
As if I got to get you back for things
I couldn't mention
You framed the boy
Harder than family portraits
Sunshine on a rainy day
I had to shed light
I couldn't ignore this
Funny now the ones ignoring
You want support
Judgements in a river flowing
One way drunken
Every night and then
I pop one on a slump day
Pop one every other
Like I live this
Life the fun way

Fun way
Oh that's how it goes
It goes
It goes

Aye aye aye
And then it's Monday
It's Sunday
It's all here funds day
I keep reminding ya'll
What's been missing
Just like a runaway
Balling on these motherfuckers
Living life half dazed
Treating family exposure
I'm getting running them draft days
Can tell the stench from opponents
On ashtrays all them motherfuckers
Quick to talk about the cash made
I'm still here for all them shawties
Class half days
Daddy day care for all them
Mothers with them paves paid
Time heals all
Distance I treat as blessings
Pain inside my eyes
I'm buckling down
With these suppressors
Hearts in my collection
Ain't beating inside possession
The therapist do agree I should
Come clean with these obsessions
Not doing this shit for the
Accolades or seconds whole
Lot of ups and downs while
Working through apprehensions
Everything we've found it's
Getting hard to boss around
Relationships they ain't the
Healthiest a few that's safe and sound
My sons room in good shape
He hardly is allowed I'm
Dusting dust while
Moving motionless
I'm covering ground they
Cheering for me now wow
Used to skirt around
You throwing salt inside the wound
You want revenge how
Wow shit right now a motherfucker
Really out here running wild
In public with the referee they
Trynna flag it down
We really had our run-ins
Had to wipe the sweat off
Clean the brow
Aye

One two three four
Five six seven
Hook and then the chorus
Ain't nothing I hold in question
Peter Pan with it child
Guide your way to Heaven
I'm only drinking that water
It's holding itself a lemon
Pinky ring I'm only wearing
For the session asking
God the price for the son to
Rise on the West end
I'm only fearing those
In churches on Sunday but
Engine run on tensions so
Anything and everything
They want they get
No exemptions

I got a motor more
I'm getting older
The lessons and weapons
They uncontrollable the
More I go you know
You can't abandon love
Never gave and that's a shame Demand and force it out
Whole games changed
I know history don't know
History to these numbers
Never seen oblivion
The energies sizzling
The reasons that I'm in
This ain't to chiseling
The stars stay glistening
The bars stay christening
I know you know
You ones that's got a cross
For aesthetic playing
Savior to a saint no
Medic pathetic family just
Like soldiers life indebted
Friends inside they role
With roll with 'till we deaded
She rather fuck the
Morning before she
Putting on cosmetics
The mission got to Kobe
You would Nipsey
Representing anyone that's
Trying to hold me
I cannot vacation now it's draining
The health I got keeps sinking
While the phrasing gets amazing
Man I'm pool side
Margaritas heart ski season
I'm broken down cold relentless
Yet I keep peaking
I need time you need reasons
Said I'm self seeking
Soul searching
Distance got me wondering
How am I supposed to know
You safekeeping the
Climate keeps on changing but
I got no dry seasonings
No dry seasons
Yeah how am I supposed to
Know that love I send
Won't break to pieces
I can't help you losing interest
Now the days they going by
Percentages a major reason why
A lot escape this life
I'm giving more than most
That do live this life unsatisfied
Don't take that shit ungratefully
A lot of pain buried alive
Always said I'll handle later
Down the road or when we
Crossed the lines and now
We're face to face with it and I
Don't even get goodnights
Conversations FBI's
They got to infiltrate to
Get to levels that I rise
It's detrimental they're
Starting to recognize

The bloods turning ice
The lines are throwing knifes
Momma said to play it nice
I could hear it twice I got to
Light to cleanse the soul I'm
Moving ghostly rest unknown
I know it's hard to
Love somebody
Through an empty telephone
length I'm going railroads
Old western with the work
Either holstered or exposed
I'm young Aaliyah
No I don't love the way you
Call me Foolish you not Ashanti
Conversations I can't explain
Always more beyond me
How much water till the
Baggage got you sinking overboard
How many times I've
Bet on life under-overs
Land on what I'm
Working towards such a
Gamble not convinced
Yankee to a Jeter throw an
A-Rod fit yeah
Devil keeps on laughing and
Clowning the boy
Heaven turned me down
Who's laughing now
It's all pitted how you
Reacting wild
I know I'm cherished
By many hated by plenty
You could blame the
Vibrations the dentist of
The family I keep them
The cleanest the ice cream
Shine heart deep he the
Sweetest villains want to
Cover up with scripture
That's the steepest
Church don't save your
Soul you killed his
Father out the picture
That's a story sold
A winding road
A celebrity woe
I mean
You can't say that lesbians
Don't know to raise children
I'm keen to spot a
Bitch when they
Stepping into the building
Life I keep on field-in
Moments you living
Different since revealing
I hear you still think of
Me when you kneeling
I'm getting bigger
Off impressions
Getting bigger
Off reflections
You couldn't dead beat the boy
But killing him is a suggestion
I've been framed
Harder than family portraits
Had a thought about if I'd ignore this

And then I'm on
I'm on, I'm on am I on
Hold on, and we on
And we on and we on and you know