Ethereal

My eyes, my hair just seem so bleak
At least that's what my mirror thinks
Too big, too rough just not enough
Ain't got the money to change it love

I cry, I sob into the sink
And then I'll binge and probably drink
Ain't got the courage to change at all
What if I try and still just fall

And it's too hard to relearn what your taught
But it's too much to rely on what you've got

Ain't this the life you're counting calories, seconds left to breathe
Ain't got the time to think, like your opinion means anything
You see them on the screen
Looking beautiful as can be
Comparing everything
And wondering why that just can't be me

You pose and smile like there's no secret to the joy on your face
You laugh and shout cause being loud makes you forget you're second place
To every god you see
Walking to where you need to be
Dainty, ethereal yeah I know that will never be me

I pray, I save to buy a dress
Then it arrives - and I'll confess
I hate the sight in front of me
Cause it's just sexualised you see

And it's been so long since I wore what I want
But is it worth it when my confidence is dropped

Ain't this the life you're counting calories, seconds left to breathe
Ain't got the time to think, like your opinion means anything
You see them on the screen
Looking beautiful as can be
Comparing everything
And wondering why that just can't be me

You pose and smile like there's no secret to the joy on your face
You laugh and shout cause being loud makes you forget your second place
To every god you see
Walking to where you need to be
Dainty, ethereal yeah I know that will never be me

You're only thirteen being told to cover up
Cause the vest top that you wore last year is suddenly too much
And now you're twenty four left your white dove at the door
Beauty is pain
I don't think that I can take it anymore

Ain't this the life counting calories, seconds left to breathe
Ain't got the time to think, cause if you did you might start to sink
You see them on the screen, looking beautiful as can be
Comparing everything but why can't you just see you're pretty

You pose and smile like there's no secret to the joy on your face
You laugh and shout but in your brain yeah we all know that's not the case
There may be gods you see walking to where you need to be
Dainty, ethereal yeah who says that that can't be me



Credits
Writer(s): Lucretia Stokes
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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