afteR egypt (february 21')

Now here you go again, you say you want your freedom
Well, who am I to keep you down?
It's only right that you should play the way you feel it
But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness

Say I wanted freedom
But what's really freedom?
When I been caught lying and cheating and killing the feeling of love
Nothing can heal it the wounds I've inflicted
Ask god for forgiveness
But that won't heal wounds that I cut in my victim Kristen my lover now that shit is history
I Don't deserve her, honestly i don't deserve her
She was an angel and he was a demon under cover
Living in a moment
Running from the lonely
Head is on backwards
I can see hindsight only
Know that the timing ain't right
But I gotta get on this flight
You're the only one I could see as my wife
What the hell I cannot believe I lost my sight for a, good woman
For no reason, so selfish baby I can't believe it
She was everything that I ever needed
Ay
I regret not respecting you as a woman
I regret not appreciating what I had
I regret hurting everyone of your feelings
All I can think about my mind a mile a minute
As Im speeding in a Kia down the 101
Not sure what you doing when you see me there
From that cliff will you throw me or leave me there
Either way I don't know I feel unprepared
Haven't slept in two days just to make it here
Hit the bank grab your money and the flowers yeah
I'm in a rush tryna get to the spot call the Mariachi tell em to hurry (Before) she arrives

Yeah it's true I ordered a Mariachi band to meet me at the top of a hillside in La Jolla
A heavy heart, not knowing what she was gonna think
She might think I'm crazy for this
It's been uh, it's been six months since we've seen each other
There's a lot of emotions a lot of feelings between us we haven't really worked out
And I, don't know what she's gonna say but

Please listen carefully
This is me telling the truth air it out for the world to see
I wasn't round for her graduation
I put paper chasing over human nature
It's bittersweet, last spring was supposed to be in Italy
I know if I love you then I gotta set you free
And if change gon' come then it starts with me (Yeah)
There she go, to Cali, all new friends, all new scene
Cut me off she blocked my phone ya she hates me
Lonely Je Suis I need to be alone again it's farewell
But I set you up again thought you was meeting a friend
By the ocean what a fucked up fairytale
I met you round 4:45
When you walked up we lock eyes
Sorry I showed up you were shocked and surprised
She couldn't believe I was standing in sight
Ima ghost from her path that she wishes would die
Ima ghost from her past she can't look in the eye without tears falling by her side
You gotta just let go, move on, move on it's alright
I'm killing the ego I know that's what's caused me my problems
I gotta respect her and give her her space for the first time
It's time to move on I hope you live your best life