Rearrange (feat. Planet Idiot)

Saw a movie the other day
Left me feeling an unusual way
Lovestruck tears in their eyes
Pain and joy, what a beautiful prize

My heart wants the highs and lows
But I'm afraid that's not the way my story goes
Valentine is such a foreign land
Yet I still need a helping hand

Is this disconnect eternal
Forever living nocturnal

Where everyone's sleeping but I'm awake
They're all reaping in the give and take
Of a life lived right
What a glorious plight
Through thick and thin
They lose and win
But at least they play the game
While I sit on the sidelines
With only myself to blame
I wish there were some signs
That my luck is gonna change
But I'm starting to fear that I'll never rearrange

I know it's hard to understand
But I've tried to be a truthful man
Yet all I offer you is dishonesty
As I try to deny my identity

I don't mean to cause any pain
But it's hard when I'm going insane
My nature chooses none of the above
Even though all I want is to be in love

Is this disconnect gonna end?
'Cause I can't keep playing pretend

That I'm sleeping when I'm really awake
While they're reaping in the give and take
Of a life lived right
What a glorious plight
Through thick and thin
They lose and win
But at least they play the game
While I sit on the sidelines
With only myself to blame
I wish there were some signs
That my luck is gonna change
But I'm afraid that I'll never rearrange

How do you accept a fate
That makes you second rate
Living with a secret pain
So you seem alright and ya can't complain
Smiling in discontent
At a life lived in dissonance
Oh what I'd do to repent
For everything I must relent

I'm afraid there's no way my luck's gonna change
Guess it's time to start liking how I'm arranged