So I Will Wait

Wait, do you still think about me?
Or is your distaste pretty much the same?
Cuz last time we talked, you said very hurtful things girl
And I still feel your ego is to blame
Cuz there were people listening in you thought you had to win
You thought you had to wear your armor, and so you ended sensitive restraint
And so you killed me in a rout, left it without doubt, much ado about nothing
Cuz our mistakes, with time we contemplate

So I will wait
I'll keep calling, I'll keep falling
I'll keep holding on my dreams I won't, won't deny it
I will try most Anything just to bring us together
You still feel it, I can see it, I can tell you know that we were good
Don't you Miss me?
In my dreams you say you do

Wait, maybe you think it's pathetic that this long after I still feel the same
And this song makes you cry from all the laughter
But tears are tears, I'll take them either way
Cuz then at least I'm on your mind, least I'm filling time
Least you're still rerunning
The many episodes when things went great
At least I occupy some space, forcing you to face
Man this is pathetic, but I've got no more cards to play

Oh oh oh why can't you see I'm what will make you happy
And since it's my time to waste, I'ma choose to waste it
Rather than to face that you might never ever let this be good

Yes I guess I'm living off the embers but total darkness hasn't yet set in...
And it won't
Cuz I'll close my eyes before hand
And hold you closely where you've always been
Cuz in my mind you smile and wave here and there you cave
You finally stop fronting
The pettiness, the jealousy, the blame
And yet the blame is mostly mine
Writing down these lines proves I just need to drop it
But I've known that for a long, long time, and it doesn't change a thing