Loss and Gain

I'm going insane
Cause of all this pain
There's no difference between loss and gain
It's all the same
Like going through a chicane
Once again
And I'm left in vain

Left to crash and burn
The more you see the more you learn
It's an endless sea of possibilities
Cause the more I see the more I need to fix me
I'm left to think what if I took that turn

Would it change the outcome
Should I think how dumb
Was I to come
So far away from

Morals and Values
Can't do this with out you
Or maybe that's the man telling me lies
Trying to blind me from seeing with my eyes
How could I be so unwise
I'm blinded by pain as he implies

As I analyze
And revise
Whether it's real life or it's dramatized

Let me emphasize
I can't recognize
Who's my allies
Cause they criticize

All the things that I do
Still tryna show you
What's true and untrue
But I don't know myself
Caught up in society
Or is it more of a perspective reality

I can't tell
I just want to yell
I feel locked in a cell
I'm going through hell
From the rooftops so they know
This really ain't about the show
I'm trapped under all this snow
This is the lowest of lows
This is how It felt
Cause in the end it's all loss and gain
And I know I will never be the same