Macrura (Part 2)

I was over you
All the longing was overdue
Is it true?
Do you love him the way I love you
You made the best of the worst
In a world that's cursed

In a world I avoided for so long
Now it's too late, my chance is gone

Time to let go
There's nothing that you owe
Does it show?
I tried, but I couldn't know
Your man won't let me be
I don't know if you see me

I don't know much about you
I don't know what to do what to do without you

I remember, 2019
In the first month, I made him scream
The last straw was the nightmare
Probably that and my stare
At the end of 2019
I found a guy who could make me scream
You made me remember
I broke it off for the better

But I couldn't know
Did you know?
Did you know?

Are you mad?
Do I make sad?
Am I bad?
You're the first love I've had
And I hate myself because
I still hope someday there's us

I thought you were shy but you were scared
Maybe I'm nice, but I'm fucking impaired

I remember, 2019
I did everything to be seen
By a kind boy who couldn't rest
With me around, cause I'm a mess
And in 2018
I had a suicide pact at 13
I couldn't let him leave me too
And now I'm doing the same to you

But I couldn't know
I couldn't know
I couldn't know, I'm sorry

Now I want you to know, I'm sorry
I didn't know, Macrura
You don't want me to know
You don't want me to know

But did you know, did you know, about me?