A Suicide Note Set To Music

To whoever finds this fucking note
On my corpse or lost at sea
My name is Adrianna and life was not worth living any longer
This whole world has been crushing me with its weight
I lost count of how long I've felt this way
This note is not my first
But maybe it'll finally be my fucking last

To Mom and Dad
I hope you know this was not your fault
But I also am not sure I'll ever be able to say you helped stop it

To my friends
I'm sorry to each and every one of you
I know how much I meant to you
But this fucking world suffocates me every day

To Jack and Jess, please keep each other safe
I'm sorry I won't be able to do the same
Keep each other company
I know we've lost a lot lately

To all my teachers
I'm sorry that I couldn't fucking do good enough
I'm sorry I'll never fucking be good enough
I'm sorry for wasting all of your time
And I'm sorry for leaving so close to the finish line

I hope to god, this river tosses me out to sea
So nobody ever has to see me like this
I hope to god, this fucking river tosses me out to sea
So you never lose hope of seeing me again

This is all I have to say
Hopefully, you don't feel sorry for me
I don't deserve your pity
I deserved every second of my death

Signed, Adrianna Mabel Smith
When tragedy strikes, poets are born