Hate Myself

I'm at a place where I hate the skin on my bones
I'm in a room where all I see is the proof
That I always let you down
I want to make you proud
But I fall I fall right to the ground

And I

Try to be strong
Put a mask shake it off
Fake it everyday they won't see the pain
But I can't play this game
I lie to self
I put it on the shelf
I'm at the very end
Oh time could you bend
I just hate myself

I breathe air in but never out my mouth
I hold it in and I suppress all my doubts
That I will never measure up
Won't be smart or cool enough
Or what I hate is who I'll become

And I

Try to be strong
Put a mask shake it off
Fake it everyday they won't see the pain
But I can't play this game
I lie to self
I put it on the shelf
I'm at the very end
Oh time could you bend
I just hate myself

Day and night and night and day
I lie awake from all the shame
Looking for a god to save
Tear to tear
Oh where's my faith?
Mirror mirror
Who do I face?
Lost in all the shades of gray
And Let it go is what they say
Yet they don't hear the thoughts I think
Or see all the tears that I bleed