Blackout

Blessed be the game, blessing in Your name
Bringing down shame to the mission, the vision, making light of provision
I just can't refuse the need to stain my own shirt
I just can't refuse the need to stain my conscience in dirt
Because man, it's hard these days
So I've got my guard up these days
Ha, who am I kidding, I'm just making smart of my ways
I'm dark lately, kind of missing the mark, so would you save me already
Dude, the devil got me questioning your presence already
Now these questions are heavy
Maybe father will show me he loves me
When he sees my nightlight light up my dead body
I'm afraid to fall to my knees, begging You please
Wash me in Your cleansing water
Fix me up, I'm begging you please

So we are the ones, the ones that put down the gun
We burn the noose, break the knife
We sing the anthem of life
So we are the ones, the ones that put down the gun
We burn the noose, break the knife
We sing the anthem of life

We sing the anthem of life
I'm sorry for going and singing, and worshipping at the steeple
When all my soul really wants to do is worship evil
My words are feeble, to all the people that think I'm some hero
I'm sorry to say I'm a zero with zero subtlety
Let it be said that I'm thirsty for holiness
But more than that, I am hungry for all that is carnal and bloody
And one again the darkness will envelope me
So I demand that your presence release its subtlety
Because in this alley with graffiti that spells out all my sins
Reminding me of the blackout in my heart that's within
I'll never win, I'm just waiting for the age to set in
My death to begin, the price for my sin
What I did to Him is I did Him in
His hands and feet pinned, blood down His chin
Died for the villains that mocked and spit at Him
But why would I be worthy of that?
What did I do for that?
Spit upon His name, then apologize and repent at the drop of a hat?
Where's the logic in that?
Not to be disrespectful Man, but are You using Your head?
Man, just leave me for dead

So we are the ones, the ones that put down the gun
We burn the noose, break the knife
We sing the anthem of life
So we are the ones, the ones that put down the gun
We burn the noose break the knife
We sing the anthem of life

The desire to end it is rooted in selfishness, never forget it
There's so many people who wanna see us up in heaven
But how can we be a light to the fight that the others face
If our face is hanging from the very thing that disgraces them?
It's hard, trust me I know
I battle every single day to remain in the light, and sometimes I wanna give in
But how could I give in them I've got a Spirit within?
A Spirit longing to pull others in, man we're in it to win it
So lets band together under the bloody, raining weather
Lets uncover our necks and let the world know we're a wreck
Lets turn the skin we tore into a testimony
And turn the guns from ourselves onto the enemy
So shoot a text to your friend, who's been hiding in the dark
Let them know you're by their side, that they have a space in your heart
Its not in death that we find our purpose
Its up to us to remind each other that we're always worth it