narcissism

Loved you like a talisman
I held you with my softest hand
I thought you were fragile, didn't want to make a wave

I loved you like a holy thing
The salt of the earth, everything I ever wanted
Held you close
When all you were was a curse

I know I defended you for things I never should have to
For things I couldn't defend to myself
I don't want you near me now, in the same state or the same town
But once you were the stars in my dark sky
Once I thought you were the reason why

You were the answer and I was the problem
If you could maybe fix it then maybe I'd feel solid so
I believe the worst in myself to love you best
There's no love in narcissism, but I still wish you the most
And no regrets

I learned what I needed from not getting it at all
Like grains of sand left on my doorstep
I'm left searching for the shore and
When I found the sea in my own bedroom, didn't shed a tear
I felt the safety of the sheets around my body, water's clear

You were the answer and I was the problem
If you could maybe fix it then maybe I'd feel solid so
I believe the worst in myself to love you best
There's no love in narcissism, but I don't wish you the most
I should have left

You were the answer and I was the problem
If you could maybe fix it then maybe I'd feel solid so
I believe the worst in myself to love you best
There's no love in narcissism, so I don't wish you the most
I should have left

I should have left