Deathwish

It's too close to touch, but it's just out of reach
Every time I turn around I see their faces staring back at me (Back at me)
Slipping away into the deepest depths
I lie awake, I lie awake

For all these years you sat in silence looking down on me
I'll be the only one to make sure it's the death of me

Don't fall asleep. I have made such mistakes, but I am not a coward
I'm just so weak

This is my deathwish

I'm tired of running around in circles inside my mind
Hoping to pass the fucking time
When everything inside just crumbles to dust
It fucking crumbles to dust
Take me to my grave
And bury me
Go on and bury me, go on and bury me

I try to escape this inhibition
It's getting harder to hold my head up high
You can take me as your prisoner
I am starting to feel whole
Memories fade and wash around me
I can't even begin to understand
Why you always leave me so lonely
I cannot run away

I've come to terms with this silence
Every time I look into her eyes
All I see is the blackness
Poison my reality
I can't live with this madness
My heart aches every time I try to sleep
Poison my reality
My heart aches every time I try to sleep

I'm so far away from myself
My dreams
My everlasting being
I try to be a better man but I'm tearing at the seems
I try, and try. I try so fucking hard
But I can't even begin to feel anything but misery
Oh

Anything

Begging. For. My. Death
Begging. For. My. Death