Chocolate Chips

It was a Sunday,
Two-week
Spring-break
Coronavirus broke out near
I wouldn't call it a fun change
March evening,
Green sprouting from the trees and,
I see a text from an old friend
Haven't talked in weeks
I'm out the game,
Want in again
She said
I know a girl
But you ain't never met her,
So my heart is lurching, don't try searching, won't find no one better
She's worth more than the world and
I think you'd go together swell
I can see it work,
And for all it's worth
If it don't work out good well
Then
You won't have to see her
She's a couple dozen miles away, so
The day's a while away
You could get see her anyways, you know
Anyways, anyways
I'm filled with curious adrenaline
The clock poking with the tiktok
Wanna be bold, where's the line stop?
So I got my phone and with a tap, tap, sat
With my hands
Crossed in my lap
On the screen, I was doing nothing
Had to fill the nothing up with, up with something
Had to think of something, something smart...
If it's stupid this is where it stops
Stop, you're overthinking it
This is usually the hardest part
Try, my best not to disappoint, I
Shoot my shot in the dark
Dart, hits it center in the bullseye, I
Sigh of relief,
...I won't lie
Then we hit it off
Fire, molotov
It was on and off, but
Texts turned into calls
Winter into fall
Every day we talked
But there was a prob
Yeah there was a problem
Damn
Now we're 9 months in
Countless nights spent waiting
For the day, ending pandemic
The months go by, a year goes by
The sweat and tears
I just feared goodbye
...But, I never felt this way
The warmth i felt with you up in my veins,
The safety, trust, built up, no rust
Red, for the passion built up in my blood
After all, you were my best friend,
Late 'times
Messed with my nightly rest
I didn't know what I was messing with
When I went and sent that first message
But in the end
I wouldn't take it back
You showed me things I didn't know I could lack
Your laugh
A drug
Yeah, you my plug
I waited a year
But another I could
Smile bright, like
North star at night
My guiding light when we were tight, yuh
Sparkle in your eyes
Coffee hypnotize
Caffeine to the brain
I lose track of time, yeah
You're all I want
Someone never seen
You're avant-garde
Pixels on a screen
Changed my perspective
Standards to the top, nothing less than,
And then
We'd wait and wait
We kept our faith, but
Seeing all of our efforts in vain was,
I don't like this
At this point, it's a crisis
Trying, failing, waiting, crying
Tell ourselves one more, get by with, yea
Four one two three
Year, month, day, week,
Odd to say I felt safe with
Something so far away, can't explain it
Tell me who wouldn't embrace it
After eons waiting, let me face it
I mean seriously. Like please man, I've been waiting for so long.
After decades we made a plan work
The plan worth 2 days of banter
And after 13 wrong turns, hope burned
Fuel dried lantern
As I turn in the lot,
Heart's through the top
Head in the clouds
Feeling aloft
Right there you are
Right there you are
Can't believe I'm saying
Right there you are

Felt you in my embrace
But you fell through my hands
I tried to hold the dam together
With a damn rubber band
I tried to fill a strainer
Tryna fill it up with sand
Was I in love, was I just attached?
The two go hand in hand, I can't
Months pass and now we're split
Didn't work, that's all it is
We were struggling, we tried our best
But in the end, it failed the test
The consequence, our consciouses
Refused to let us go, go
Take the attachment
And pair that with
Clinging to the past, oh no,
It's been a year since that low, low
We don't talk much no more, more
Now we've hit our highs
And we said goodbye
One time,
Then three more, more
The feelings gone and
We've moved on,
We had our fun
But now it's done
That chapter's finally closed
Stoic go ahead, show 'em how it goes