Live Through the Pain

I look in the mirror each and every night
And I ask myself what did I do wrong
Everybody seems to pick on everything I do
I put my face down into the pillow
With a lot of tears streaming down my face
And I ask myself what did I do wrong now?

I cry to sleep today night
Wondering what did I
Do to deserve all the hate that I get
Listening to sad songs
To reflect the sad times
They just can't get out of my head at all
Just live through the pain

Wake up in the morning with lots of guilt
Flashbacks of the day before come to mind
I tried to forget the pain when I had cried
Giving all my friends gifts so that they will
Think that I am cool and treat me better
All the things I do so that they think I am cool

I like to talk to my friends
To distract myself from
The reality that I cannot face
I cry in front of my friends
But I'm scared they think that
I seek too much attention from them
When I'm living through the pain

Do they really care?
Am I overthinking again?
Or are they pretending to like me?
Whatever I did
Seems like I'm a jerk
But I am living through the pain
What did I do?
Why do I have to
Go through this pain