Love Me While I'm Here

I ain't saying I'm perfect, been through days of entitlement
Putting purpose over pleasure
We ain't losing we learning
I know for certain I'm worth it
I been healthy and celibate
Judging me off the looks, I could prolly go sell the dick
Rappers just be rapping
This is passion I'm passing out
If it's easy come show me out
She'd ask me what I'm stressing about
'I ain't stressing I just know that you don't fuck with me back'
Then she put her hair up in a pony and tell me 'relax'
Got bad habits I unlearned
To make the greatest, now
Sadly bridges had to burn they tried to take me down
And I ain't playing the victim but if you see me I'm paranoid
Awkwardly moving around thinking they're staring me down
All the drama is for the birds, y'all be capped for the clout
Started seeing how the words you said affecting me now
Try to realize what you got before you lose the now
Always giving all I got, I don't throw the towel
I've made my way out the dark
And faked my pain at the start
Trying to be something you're not ain't gonna get you that far
Insecurities eating me, I gave 'em all of my heart
Made me trust they really got me
Guess they playing a part
Heard they lying on my name
Just know it come with a fee
Opinions meant the world to me now they living through me
I fall forward no regression, leave 'em right where they're at
Focused on the present, grateful that I learned to give back
Fell in love with music
I ain't scared to get too attached
Bred within the culture
Just a different tone like I'm Jack
Studied Ye, Drake and Em
Rest In Peace up to Mac
These are inspirational raps
And you bet your ass they're all facts

Talking to myself

I know that I'm not my past, sometimes I'm living too fast
Had to slow down take control where I'm at
And I ain't never seen another person that I wanna be on the map
A bunch of wanna be's that ain't what they be in their raps
I ain't cocky, I'm confident
She said both leave a trace
They be copying flows, but I ain't losing my faith
Me, I run my own race
Slowly just move at my pace
Nah homie this ain't no phase
They gone remember the name
I'm gonna keep ridin' my wave while y'all be sounding the same
Left my heart on ice, I can't say I could do you the same
I can't say you didn't try, I know I'm stuck in my ways
But once you group me with them guys I say fuck it, you straight
I guess the more that you know just means the more that you grow
I learned to let 'em all know because you reap what you sow
I been loving what I got and learned to make it my own
I've been making Kyle proud, that's a word to my throne
She said you been out of style, that ain't a word of my own
Only 17 was forced to move up out of my home
Hate, but can't replace me
Trust me that I'm back in that mode
Even back to the ropes
I might slip, I won't fold
This ain't something that you're given, I work harder than most
I'm the greatest story written that's just yet to be told
I don't want it if its given
I want it all on my own
Always asking why and wasn't hearing shit I was told
Sorry if I was arrogant
I'm never meaning no wrong
Momma lying to me made me almost question my role
On the bench with an attitude
Word to coach I ain't mad at you
I've been working on gratitude
And just givin' a fuck less