I "Feel" Good

Its hard to seek out somebody to love
And keep em close without them letting go
Then you remember who is up above
Inside your head that keeps on saying no
All my thoughts that keep on building up
Make it hard for me to keep a show
I start to think if I should give it up
But I guess for now I'll say I feel good

My days go on, and on, and on and
My family always has a question
They go on, and on, and on and
Asking why I even having depression
So we go on, and on, and on and
Talking about my damn medication
So I'll go on, and on, and on and
About how I always have to feel good
Its hard for me to ever let out what I'm feeling inside
Cuz all I know I will never be who I want to be with you
Till I feel good
You could never understand unless you're in my mind
Cuz for all you know I can just play it off whenever I'm with you
Cuz I feel good

Its hard to seek out somebody to love
And keep em close without them letting go
Then you remember who is up above
Inside your head that keeps on saying no
All my thoughts that keep on building up
Make it hard for me to keep a show
I start to think if I should give it up
But I guess for now I'll say I feel good

Don't ask me how I'm doing cuz I feel the same
Constant fighting with the devil, but I'm the one to blame
Started seeing so much so I can finally cope with the pain
Instead of helping it did the opposite cuz look what I became
Started taking medication
Hoping to find my inner patience
Told the doctor I wasn't sleeping so he didn't keep me waiting
Started hiding where the shade is
Think the dirt in me related
Cuz I keep on getting faded
Tryna' to find out where the way is
Cuz I'm always trying to feel good
But to them it doesn't matter
Tryna' feel the way I should
Cuz I'm climbing up the ladder
Hoping I won't fall cuz I struggle a lot
Fell in love with the drugs
Not the ones that I got
Tryna find a way and feeling hoping that I'm close
I've been doing a lot and kneeling to the Lord I toast
I know people say they care but I'm stubborn in my mind
Stuck in fighting with myself who I'm always trying to find
And it's
Its hard for me to ever let out what I'm feeling inside
Cuz all I know I will never be who I want to be with you
Till I feel good
You could never understand unless you're in my mind
Cuz for all you know I can just play it off whenever I'm with you
Cuz I feel good

Its hard to seek out somebody to love
And keep em close without them letting go
Then you remember who is up above
Inside your head that keeps on saying no
All my thoughts that keep on building up
Make it hard for me to keep a show
I start to think if I should give it up
But I guess for now I'll say I feel good