Nervous Wreck 2

Stressing constantly, No rest, body's dripping with sweat
Aggression's spreading from my brain, that was angry and depressed
No check was big enough to save my health, cause it was dying in debt
My only interest was the grave, cause I'm a nervous wreck
Losing control of holding on in this confusion, while using music
To escape my problems of the pain, that's refusing to give me a break
I'm drowning, how much more can I take?
Nobody cares to understand, what I continue to face
Depression's giving me more reasons 'to hate my complexion
As it appears in this cold world, full of rejection
Staring suicide in the mirror, face to face
With pressure boiling inside, so will I lay to waste?
In paranoia's ocean territory, here comes the wave
I'm not prepared, cause I don't care if I survive it's disgrace
Even if I died, in my eyes, I'll still be left with the stress
That'll drive me crazy, till I crash, I'm a nervous wreck

I'm a nervous wreck
It's hard to fight these demons
It's hard to fight these demons, everyday, everyday
Cause I'm a nervous wreck, ooo

I feel psychotic, racing demons on a race track, in my mind
Cause I feel my body moving fast pace steps
Every breath takes a toll on me, when I'm far from my zone
That keeps me company, and comforts me, when I'm all alone
A loner wolf, inside the woods, that never bothers to peak
At what reality put him through, that made him lose sleep
I can relate, cause all my life, I was embarrassed to speak
Getting picked on was bad enough, to where people pretended to see me, suffering
The name loner, equals getting outnumbered
To where the feelings turn to fear, of stepping into the public
To lose judgement to a subject, that the devil attended
For me to fail tremendously, when I got anxiety suspended
When it came back, it was madder than ever, to see my face
That it would try it's best to haunt me, to the nearest grave
But even if I died, In my eyes, I'll still be left with the stress
That'll drive me crazy, till I crash, I'm a nervous wreck

I'm a nervous wreck
It's hard to fight these demons
It's hard to fight these demons, everyday, everyday
Cause I'm a nervous wreck, ooo

What's left to do, if no one listens, when you're seeking help?
Except to die, cause you can't live this pain, all by yourself
No one to talk to, cause I panic, till I'm left alone
And it seems like no one understands you, till you're gone
Was I born here to suffer with this nervousness, on a daily base?
Cause no matter when I fight, it doesn't seem to go away
Head forced to look, only at the ground, when the stares rise
When the butterflies forced me to never look at people's eyes
My music's different, cause it's not energetic, and why?
Because I speak that real depression, that's real life
I'm private, but willing to spread my energy to others that try
To fight their demons, that multiply, to make our bodies shy enough
To avoid communication to our peers, and loved ones
For life to draw us closer to the coffin
But even if I died, In my eyes, I'll still be left with the stress
That'll drive me crazy, till I crash, I'm a nervous wreck