Grief

Weight on my shoulders
Grief up my neck
I am attached
To letting negatively live with me
That shit is so whack
I sink cuz the reaper be running up my back
So my worn feet make two paths
Cover up my tracks
I've done enough I'm gassed
The high is gone I crashed
Pythons in my grass uh
I always seem to
Put myself in the worst position
And end up thinkin to myself
I wish I could reverse decisions
I spent the past two years tryna forget the past seven years
Heavens tears falling on me
And I feel washed at last
I remember chillin at robs crib
I always say Satan
He interfered with what god did
I could imagine us right now
On that porch with a white owl
I guess the lesson is
Always cherish your friendships
But this is more than a friendship
It's family
It's brotherhood
And that's somethin that's understood
From the get go
Don't wanna let go
Of what we thought would last an eternity
That shit is burned in me

I wonder would
You still be done for good
If you never took
That ride on your two wheels
My body was still
But I was shook
We been through so much I think we could write a book
Life without certain ones has been kind of rough
Thinkin about the future for me is really tough
I'm a factual rapper
Fuck all the silly stuff
Thinkin back when I had to
really give a fuck
I was desperate for love
But I wasn't real enough
Now I'm despondent toward love
I could probably use a hug
But all you gonna get
Is a Kanye esque shoulder shrug
Like I said I fell in love back when I didn't know enough
Emotional wound on the beat
The way I open up
Telling me once your ego downsizes
That's when you growing up
My verbal sword is tucked
Your soul is cut
Blood on the tip of my tongue
Like I ate period plum
I remain calm
But I'm still tryna be blowing up