Happy Worst Day (Purgatory)

This ain't the way it was supposed to be according to who you crying at the Rosary
I showed love so it's the more we see
But it's a gamble don't shed no more tears Mon Ami
Dying inside smiling when you're around
Anybody see my soul inside the lost and found
God answer me please pick up the line
I'm sick of leaving voicemails I'm going out my mind
I pray and I pray like theres no tomorrow
Gave up my heart is there a home that I can borrow
Is there a place I can go and feel like I belong
I know you're used to more strength up inside my songs
But I'm losing it
Spinning inside of my moral compass
It's a useless trip looking deep down and I know theres something
No time to be holding grudges
Losing my grip big picture untold and smudging

Now every day's my worst day
This really fucks with me
Know there's something
Something deep inside
Way deep inside
That I can't fucking see
Can't fucking see

Life's a blur I focus the sight occured
My mistake
But is this really what I deserve
Can't seem to find the words
A million apologies will still manage to strike a nerve
Actions speak louder I'll show you the difference between me and them girl they dont even know you
No comparison
These demons are deadweight and we carry them
I know we triggered thoughts from the past it's time to bury them
Easier said than done and I know it
But I saw em dying inside our love when it's growing
You won't admit it though cause what I did was pitiful
Shouldve left your side when you told me look in that mirror though
Would you have left mine if you were in my shoes
When you'd go all in in love but everytime you lose
When everybody you trust let's you pay their dues
Felt the rush when in love just to be called a fool

Now every day's my worst day
This really fucks with me
Know there's something
Something deep inside
Way deep inside
That I can't fucking see
Can't fucking see

Love of my life I pray you're finding yourself
Don't settle for nothing but the truth oh dont you lie to yourself
Been finding a new perspective
The unguided move corrected
I'm liking this new direction
From the greatest pain comes the greatest strength
If heaven was a mile away I'd go to greater lengths
Its day by day
I know the moment will fadeaway
So hold it close to console it soak in amazing grace
How sweet the sound I will never know
You singing at our wedding but can't imagine a better note
Wrote vows that I had never spoke
Moment of silence
Couldn't think of a better joke
Straight face through every curve that's forming
Saved dates that just ain't working for me
Restless nights you'll cry to hold me through the mourning
But I'm in limbo you heard the story of purgatory

Now every day's my worst day
This really fucks with me
Know there's something
Something deep inside
Way deep inside
That I can't fucking see
Can't fucking see
Now every day's my worst day
This really fucks with me
Know there's something
Something deep inside
Way deep inside
That I can't fucking see
Can't fucking see
Now every day's my worst day
This really fucks with me
Know there's something
Something deep inside