Locked Up

I have intrusive thoughts, like, all of the time and
They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich, I
Think I'm choking on 'em, maybe I'm spineless
To never reach out, well inside I'm

Up and wired, drinking all of this caffeine
I'm too tired, don't got a sense of a routine
Well, it's made me lonely to be, like, the only
One that's up at three

And though, chemically I'm missing like, a ton of shit
I brush it off and tell myself, "Get over it"
It can't be that hard, to rinse and restart
Just fake a smile, laugh, and repeat

But it's hard to fake it in this situation
I keep getting so caught up
I need to get help, or maybe some luck 'cause

I have intrusive thoughts, like, all of the time and
They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich, I
Think I'm choking on 'em, maybe I'm spineless
To never reach out, well inside I'm

Melting down, 'til I'm trapped and I'm lonely, but
I don't really give a fuck if you know me, I've
Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart
To keep everything inside me locked up

Been jaded for a while, isn't it obvious?
It's going out of style, can't fall 'cause the audience
Would pick me apart, I'll stick with my heart
Working at the end of the day

So I'll keep whispering the mantra, under my breath
Won't look too deep into the things that they said, 'cause
The feeling ain't mutual, I'd go to the funeral
And pay my respects, 'cause chivalry isn't dead

But it's hard to fake it in this situation
I keep getting so caught up
I need to get help, or maybe some luck, 'cause

I have intrusive thoughts, like, all of the time and
They never make sense, gimme the Heimlich, I
Think I'm choking on 'em, maybe I'm spineless
To never reach out, well inside I'm

Melting down, 'til I'm trapped and I'm lonely, but
I don't really give a fuck if you know me, I've
Gotten this far, I get that it's not smart
To keep everything inside me locked up

Keep everything inside me locked up
Keep everything inside me locked up
Keep everything inside me locked up

But everything inside me's locked up
(Okay, I'm done)