Dreamer

I wanna grab your shoulders and shake them
Till you get it through your head
That it isn't my fault
You're such a sociopathic piece of shit
Of course I believed every word you said
'Cause you had such a sincerity
But I guess I dreamed up a version of you
That wasn't along to mislead

I wanna grab your fingers and twist them
Till you scream your social
Give you a kiss with a fist
But I can only be hopeful
Every time you cried and I came crawling right back
I'm so sick of always crawling right back
And something has to change

And after all the deception
I guess I never knew you
The version in my head that I was forcing is so much better
And after saying so many times
That you would never do that
That's all you did and all you ever ever ever will do

So now what the fuck am I supposed to do
All alone in your city of angels
It's getting boring walking around the empty streets
Playing victims from movies
Just give in, I need company
We weren't even more, but it haunts me
That it really isn't all your fault
I'm such a fucking dreamer

But after all the broken promises
I guess I never knew you
The version in my head that I was forcing is so much better
And after saying so many times
That you would never do that
That's all you did
They always come crawling back for more
Until they don't
But when I'm dead you'll regret it
You have to
Or you will when I'm most alive
And when you call again
I'll kneel
And you'll take me