Paint/4Life

It's funny how the time flies
Four years just flew by
Listening to my old songs
And i be like who's that guy?
It was just like yesterday
When i released a song for my birthday
A couple singles had passed
A mixtape and an album
20k in the first month spent half of that on...
Can't write without having a drink
Now that just speaks volume
I've been throwing up in the bathroom
Locking myself in a yellow room
If it's bad for me then i'll consume
I'm looking for a lover and i don't want any other

And i just don't know what to believe anymore
Just accept all the shit then watch them walk out the door.
It's all good, i'll be fine
I've been through this before
Yeah i've been through this before

Leila wrote a letter
She said that in time it's all gonna get better
Franchesca, Francesca said some words about me she saw the beauty within me
Jt be calling me up he said that one day we bound to get this paper
Jace told me papi go get it
Shoutout to Chua that boy like my brother
Shoutout to Andrea that girl my manager
Shoutout to Mark which one? Both of them
Shoutout to Eugene and all of my brothers from highschool
Missing the days when we skipped school
Facetime with LA
Tell her that i'm going insane
My problems with drinking and how i'm abusing
And how i save my self by writing and singing
She making me change for the better,
She said that we're both in this shit together
Shaina and Chlea yeah they're still here
i love how they kept their promise, that even though we were in college
Nothing would change i'm thankful for that everyday
I mention their names
On rare occasions that i pray
Words from people i love
This is what gets me through another day
Salamat sa aking pamilya at sa mga tropa
At sa mga tropa na naging pamilya
Sa mga di ko nabanggit diyan pasensya
Sa buhay ko kayo ay mahalaga
Nagkulang lang sa oras kaya medyo nagmamadali na
Shoutouts to everyone who chose to see what's behind the struggle
Through all these long days and long nights that you stayed
I'm just trying my best to stay, trying my best to maintain
And i just don't know what to believe anymore

Consider this an open letter
To all my family my friends and my ex lovers
Yeah, holding it down the greatest of all time
Can't think of nobody that can do it better
Dealers, users and killers no matter what they say
I can't think of no one that i love better
Okay cruising round the city late at night
Bumping cigarettes, just tryna get our mind right
Just a couple of kids tryna get through these long days and these long nights
Shania in the driver seat and i be on the aux
It's kind of therapeutical
Just crusing round the city bumping instrumentals
Yeah this our detox from all of the demons
Don't think of no deeper meaning this all just purely feelings
Realizations that we were better off as friends
No matter what happens, we still got each other until the end
I will always be thankful that i got her as a friend
This the fourth song that i wrote for you
I guess now there's nothing left to do
But sing along to this hook that i made for you
Back when i was still in highschool
Yeah this one coming out straight from the books
Long days and long nights you know how we do
Yeah fuck what's in the past
Right now it's all good
Shoutout to my Mom and Dad
Both going through some shit, but still continued to provide
I guess i don't often say it but i love you both to death
I'm thankful for everything that you did
Look at me now you made me shine
I'm feeling that i made it
but just know that if worse comes to worse
It ain't your fault, i'm a grown ass kid already
Got demons of my own but i keep fighting
Talking to Kristine on the phone, i know that she got me
Sharing stories, passing time, playing call of duty just to keep us sane
Just to cover up the pain e
Everybody been going through something i can see it, no reason to hide it
As long as i'm here i vow to make it a little less heavy
No matter what it is i'll always be ready to carry
I know that all of you are losing energy but just continue to fight
Keep the wheel steady
This goes out to Erika been talking for almost a decade but the vibe just never fades
That's the bff keep doing what you doing, keep on shining
Always got your back i will always be supporting
You're the one who always made shit better
You know that i love you forever
And if anybody puts their hands on you
I swear to God that i'll kill em

Sa mga tito tita, lolo lola, i thank you for the never ending love and support
Even on days that we don't always get along
Just sing along to this next song
Thank you