Quaver

I'm skimming between the surfaces
Of confidence and nervousness
All this shaking is far worse than turbulence
Ignoring disturbances
In search of pertinence
So i can finally begin to start my metamorphosis

I never thought a habit would be this hard to kick
Then again I never thought time would start to move so quick
Never submit, guaranteed to throw a fit, start things and not commit
I will admit if I omit but not a bit if you don't split
The blame, shit for brains, simple and plain
I love to complain, sick of the same
Connect my missing parts with other constellations
Contemplating fluctuations
Always waiting, no more patience

Seems I'm starving for salvation, but I don't know from what
All these people wanna help, but I would rather self destruct
I have this constant in my gut it's anxiousness that keeps me stuck
And staying hidden from the sun, can't I finally come undone?
Not living off of crumbs, check to check, in search of funds
Not scared of what's to come instead thrilled to get it done

Steadily stunned, who am i to become?
Constant conundrum, I'm sick of the humdrum
Take me back to numb tongue, why is the all fun done?
Childhood stopped the second I knew that I had one

What keeps me around if all I wanna do i pout
Love to shout, head in clouds, constantly looking down
Permanent frown, how can I turn this thing back around
No way out, fiending for an itch 'till my junkie's aroused
Doused in doubt, what is this thing really all about?
Suppose to feel safe and [quaver] with my hands around my mouth?

I'd rather not, help undo these knots, cosmonaut
Send me far within the stars, please don't ever stop
All we really are is tiny dots, or speckles
Either way just promise me that we're essential
How can humans be forgettable
With time that's non-extendable
How come I can't just let it go?
Accept the ceaseless ebb and flow
And bask inside an afterglow

I am you and you are me so we are more than merely bodies
We are them and they are us so we are more than nearly copies
Stop your focus on the rotting and begin to start applauding
I've forgotten we're connected, yet alone, don't you get it?

We're all just human