What Have I Done To Life

Yea, first person
See this dude named Mike
He bought a new device, couldn't afford it twice
Big money making? he said it's all hype
It doesn't make you fine, inside or alive, but it fucks with your pride
He got tough when he'd fight, street type shit, all that shit has a price
He won some nights, but lost most times
What hurt him the most his mom said bye (Ah)
He did try to find some work tho
But without an education jobs are uncertain
Tryna find some happiness is tryna find a purpose
But how to find a purpose when you lack as a person
Cause of your past, cause of your choices
My fam ain't loyal, cause I am the poison
Sometimes at night I can still hear their voices
They yelling to go to the school I'm avoiding (Ah)
But I was 18 then so fuck them
Meanwhile I hate the man I'm becoming
Looking for some cash while the gas pumping
Bumbing Straight Outta Compton, shit buzzing (Yea)
If he lived like she did he'd be tripping
They meeted one day, it was all new
He don't fit in the system but that made him different
Now he looks up to people he hated like you

Some days I wish I would look into books, get a job, maybe two
Life would be stable, and people'd look at me like I'm one of you
I'd always say she's a slave and I know that I ain't
Tho it's kinda lame I portray her that way
I'm praying today cause I hope for a change

What have I done to life?
To deserve all the pain that I'm feeling
To always have people look down on me, doesn't matter all shit I'm achieving
What have I done to life?
To think all the thoughts that I'm thinking
To regret my decisions, all of my actions, and all of the stuff I been missing
What have I done to life?
To deserve all the pain that I'm feeling
To always have people look down on me, doesn't matter all shit I'm achieving
What have I done to life?
To think all the thoughts that I'm thinking
To regret my decisions, all of my actions, and all of the stuff I been missing

Yea, second person
See this girl was the smartest in the class
You'd say she's amazing she won't say it back
So focused on herself in her own life trapped
Flash forward she had a lot of that cash
Name's Sarah-you-do-not-have-to-worry
A penny for your thoughts but I'm loaded with hunnids
My family is awesome, awesomeness gets blurry
When I think about how I don't got encouraged
To be me and follow my passions
Yes I am average, no I ain't a savage
I'm strapped up with baggage
I'm so fucking damaged, the system's attacking
The people who manage it
What can I say to complain, I got money for days, it's success in a way
I got colleagues they nice and they greet me with 'hey'
But I think that those colleagues are ones who relate
Depressed of the stress, I feel less
My regrets do peak when it's 3 past
5 AM, at night, how do I survive, in this program, the cycle of life
If she lived like he did, she'd be tripping
Then they fell in love it was all new
His life got stable, her life became different
That is a story for part two

Some days I wish I would take some more risks, be unstabler too
Life'd be exciting, less tiring, maybe way better than you
I'd always say he's a shame and I know that I ain't
Tho it's kinda lame I portray him that way
I'm praying today cause I hope for a change

What have I done to life?
To deserve all the pain that I'm feeling
To always have people look down on me, doesn't matter all shit I'm achieving
What have I done to life?
To think all the thoughts that I'm thinking
To regret my decisions, all of my actions, and all of the stuff I been missing
What have I done to life?
To deserve all the pain that I'm feeling
To always have people look down on me, doesn't matter all shit I'm achieving
What have I done to life?
To think all the thoughts that I'm thinking
To regret my decisions, all of my actions, and all of the stuff I been missing