February Energy

I don't know what to say, but it just feels kinda off
Got these holes in my brain, a sinking feeling in my heart
Feet glued to a rug incinerating under me
Now what comes next? No time to wait and see
So I can't sleep
Thoughts of everyone I was ever mean to now circling me
Oh eye-writing on the walls, planning betterment goals
Heart still racing from reading Freire and Garry Shandling
Losing ground, I'm slipping
Perpetual motion, losing sight of the mission
Caught myself, now I'm coming back slowly
To feeling February Energy
To feeling February Energy

These weekends of zen reflections and meditative states
But then by Wednesday, I'm brimming with rage
And that's not like me; I've never been angry
Feel it loud out of my soul like I owe to macro memory
Curled up in a balcony hammock
Looking at a bay, bridge, skyline, or dark planet
Crack open my mind, flatten myself with feeling
Find new "frameworks for solutions" and defining our meaning
Yeah, woah

Losing ground, I'm slipping
Perpetual motion, losing sight of the mission
Caught myself, now I'm coming back slowly
To feeling February
Losing ground, I'm slipping
Perpetual motion, losing sight of the mission
Caught myself, now I'm coming back
Oh now I'm coming back
Oh baby
Now I'm coming back to realizing, "Hey! I'm a person!
And our world keeps turning
And throughout our past and future times
I hope to keep emanating out these glowing orbs of light"