Maybe You Should

This is what it's like when you can't decide
I freeze up inside feeling paralyzed
I look you in the eyes supposed to say the truth
What if that's not something I can really do
You're wishing I wasn't distant but listen
I've been on a mission to stay indifferent
Been vulnerable before it didn't end well
Funny, I've been fine since keeping to myself
I swear I never choke but your words grab my throat
When you tell me there's things that you deserve to know
Maybe I care about you more than I care to admit
Ok I think about the things I really should've said
But don't you for a moment think I'm ever gonna own it
Cause emotions are opponents and you can call me soulless
Cause maybe you should know
But you never will
So now I gotta hear you go

Oh, you're hurting me
You know this ain't fair
Why you avoiding me
Can't you see I'm right here
Oh, you're killing me
Do you even care
I've been losing hope
I deserve to know

You hit me on the phone
Cause you know there's no hope
We won't get sexual if we do this in the physical
We got good memories so you gather bravery
To ask what's wrong with you and me
It may seem that things lately have gone well
That's true but you only see your point of view
So don't blame me if I don't say things
That won't make your dreams come
As for the truth you wanted when you leave I'll be haunted
On the regular probably think of how I lost this
It's my fault this time's lost but why stall
Cause life's got too much pain to risk more at all
So let's end things while you're sad but not angry
It'd honestly kill me if you grew to hate me
So maybe you should know
But you never will
So now I gotta hear you go

Oh, you're hurting me
You know this ain't fair
Why you avoiding me
Can't you see I'm right here
Oh, you're killing me
Do you even care
I've been losing hope
I deserve to know