Starlings

I, I want to fly
I want to fly like the starlings in winter
I want to feel
I want to feel everything
Without it all seeping in

I want to dance with no distraction
In no direction
With this weight lifted from my shoulder
I'll learn to grow older
I'll learn to go with the wind

These little birds they fly so free
I learn to be a starling when I allow myself to be
Listening to every moment as it comes
Eating pasta on the doorstep
Breathing in the morning hum

My mother will die some day
But I have spent my life grasping onto every single word she says
So when she cried at the kitchen table
Oh this woman who had sheltered me
I soon would have to cradle in return

I learnt
We're not invincible
We're all just animals
But too clever for our own good
We're too emotional
We're too fearful
Oh we are out of control
Still we try to rise
Above it all

To live where the starlings fly
To live where the starlings fly
To live
To fly
Above these fields where my bones shall lie
Now live
Just fly
To bask in winter golden skies
I live
I fly
I fly
I fly