Retrograde

They tryna follow the wave
I never really paid attention
My momma always checked me
Never acted petty
When I get my license
Imma get that chevy
Feelings all around me
Back is feeling heavy
Niggas in my session
Why y'all acting they so unnatural
Coming out they so stunned at you
Acting like you never had volume
Now I'm crying in the backroom
Tears dropping like some morning dew
Almost had you as my tattoo
Almost had you as my tattoo
I almost had you as my tattoo
My tattoo

Drowning
Drowning inside these waters
Looking for you, I'm under
You're nowhere to be seen
Why'd you let me go this deep?
You're on the surface with him
You see me searching and lurking
You're so obsessed with your man
What does he have that I don't?
I just need to know where you been
Like where you been?
Ohh

On my way to go
On my way to go
On my way to go

Just thought it was a phase
I been in denial
Felt like walking through a maze
Don't want everyone to hate me
Just because a nigga taste
I been in my mind
Feel like my life been gave to take
But it's something that keeps me going
Love that's sincerely potent
All my life felt like token
Can't be forever broken
My future
Like flash bang
All my boys
Go insane
Trying to find my way
In a place that don't change
Never change
Never change
Never switch
On me babe
Stay the same
Stay the same
Stay the same
Stay the same

On my way to go
On my way to go
On my way to go
On my way to go
On my way to go
On my way to go

You are all I need
Take my air, and don't make a sound
Don't make a sound
Take the air I breathe
Watch me slowly sink to the ground
Don't make a sound

I'm not afraid to die
I'm afraid of missing out
Reminiscing on a couch
Fuck is that about
I'm stuck up on memories lost in time
Lost in my head, nostalgic mind
Searching for something I'll never find
Contempt
Damn that's a sad line
I'm sorry
I cannot keep composure
It's hard to be open and show emotion
Whole life I built walls
And they keep on closing
It's gettin' real hard to stay hoping
Bottling up leading to the bottle
Using the drank to drown sorrows
Not to that point but dads steps I follow
I'll prolly be better this time tomorrow
That's how it always is up and down
Bipolar I don't like the way that sounds
It's like the worst roller coaster around
I just wanna be ok now
It's always a struggle to feel right
It's always a struggle to sleep at night
It's always a struggle, get outta bed
Man what the fuck up with my head
I'm tired of feeling like this
I'm tired of feeling like shit
I'm tired of waking up
Just to go right back to bed
Maybe I'm just a little bitch
Fuck
I'm trying not to cry
I'm trying my best, alright?
I'm not afraid to die